I was a poet once...sort of...

Anyone who's ever moved (so everyone) knows what it is like to come across things you haven't seen forever. Last night, as I was looking for something that I thought I had packed in my giant pink suitcase, I pulled out an old photo album full of poems I wrote in high school. I don't even remember packing the album in there, but my bad memory is not the topic of this blog. So anyway, just now I decided to read some of the poems. Instantly, they brought me back to a teen aged, hormone driven love and lust saga that filled quite a few years of my life... Anyway, I have always been quite the "feeler," and as a teenager, everything was intensified. Everything was earth shattering. Everything was dream ending. I was dramatic. Way over-dramatic. But at the time I didn't know it. I just thought I was in love, and in pain, and all of that teen aged hormonal craziness. I also thought I was a pretty good writer at the time but reading these things now only makes me laugh. Here are a few samples:

Life 10-12-94
What can I do in this world of misery, in this world of violence and sin?
What can I be, a glimmer of hope, ever since I was invited in.
When the curtain falls and the laughter dies and the people all go away
When we start to cry and no one asks why, that's when I'll be asked to stay.
I won't be able to leave my sadness, this crazy world of trends,
I'll have to stay and live it out until the carousel ends.
I'll be stuck here with nothing to lose except for maybe my soul,
Cuz here I am all alone, waiting in this hole.
Time goes by and nothing changes but nothing stays the same,
Everyone uses, laughs at and cries in this terrible, ruthless game.

Haaaaa

Please Forgive Me 10-17-94

Please forgive me, Please love me, Please don't leave me, Please want me

Please keep yourself safe, Please keep yourself well

Please be happy, Please don't go to Hell

Please keep me, Please stand above me, Please know I am here

Please help me, Please trust me, Please keep yourself near

Please please me, Please show me, Please run with me there

Please teach me, Please hear me, Please look at me, stare

Please kiss me, Please notice me, Please fuck me, Please care

Please always remember me, Please never forget

Please stay here with me, Please don't leave yet.

HaaaaaHaaaaa

And finally something uplifting...kinda...

Love Yourself (Better Things) 6-28-94

Sing a song, laugh out loud

Show yourself and be proud

Don't hide with masks and things

Take off and fly with imaginative wings

Love yourself, believe in you

Better things will shine through

Don't be judgemental, leave hatred behind

Love everyone, be gentle and kind

Keep on thinking better things

And more than likely that's what tomorrow will bring.

I think that's enough for now, yes? hehe